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Latest Energy Alert

Categories: Energy Alerts | April 23rd, 2008 | by mysticwonder01 | no comments

Hey everyone!

I haven’t posted the link to Karen’s Energy Alert in a while, but this one is bang on for a lot of people right now, including myself. I was planning on writing a blog myself and still might, however, this alert seems to hit on the major emotions and blocks I’ve been seeing lately.

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If you’re feeling lost, lethargic and unable to connect with those around you, this is the alert to read!

xoxo,
Cristin

This Is Me, Cristin Exposed…

Categories: Epiphanies, Love & Stuff, Just Life | March 28th, 2008 | by mysticwonder01 | no comments

About a month ago, my boyfriend and I were driving to his apartment, chatting about random stuff when a silly memory came back to me. I told him about the time I had met up with a couple of women for Thanksgiving out of town. We spent the day traveling from some small town in Indiana to Lexington, Kentucky to meet up with a bunch of people from all over. I didn’t feel like driving so I put my fate into the hands of a lady I had just met. Keep in mind, I was only about 20 years old at the time so I didn’t think it was a big deal.

Well, this one had a lead foot, big time! She drove my Neon (yeah, I know) an hour and a half at 110 miles per hour and I thought that was going to be the end of me. That drive was supposed to be a solid 3 hours. I thought to myself, “Damn, those were some good, fun times. I can’t believe I forgot about that!” What’s funny is that I can’t remember the ladies’ names, but the event is etched in my mind. I don’t know what triggered that visual. Maybe it’s the fact that Dave has a tendency to make quick stops and fast turns, who knows, but that memory brought upon an epiphany and a smile to my face.

When we’re in a place where nothing seems to be going right, we’re bored, lonely or just downright pissed, we can forget about those events that don’t feel special at the time. We don’t put any stock into them because we’re so focused on the negative for moments, months or even years and I’m guilty of allowing that to happen to myself many times and for a variety of reasons.

A long way to happy…

Again I’m here reflecting on where I’m at in my life now versus March last year. I do this fairly often, but this one feels much more profound since I’m in the midst of yet another major life change. For the record, that’s 2 in almost 2 years time for me. I’ve been a busy girl, that’s for sure. Well, I believe moving in with my boyfriend and his two daughters plus being pregnant with my first child is major because it’s definitely not the life I envisioned for myself prior to moving to Ohio. To be honest, I can’t remember the exact vision I had. I do, however, remember thinking that Ohio was just a pit stop on the path I thought I’d be traveling on. Not only was I wrong, but it turns out that I actually belong here. Who knew? Certainly not me.

First off, I really thought the people I was friends with when I moved here were going to be in my life for the long haul. WRONG! I thought it would take me at least a couple of years to find a relationship I wouldn’t sabotage (hey, I was being realistic). WRONG! I believed I wouldn’t ever be a part of or fit into a “white picket fence“ family. WRONG! Oh and let’s not forget the fact that I was NEVER going to get pregnant. WRONG AGAIN! I think you get the point. I was severely mistaken on all acounts and I feel stupid, in a good way.

I have to say that my relationship with Dave single handedly exposed my stupid shit and ripped off the final layer to the repulsive mask I’ve been sporting for quite some time now. That’s what happens when you are served the romantic partner that’s in your highest good. Believe me when I say that events in “your highest good” aren’t always fun and easy. It’s quite the opposite, actually. I have a nasty pattern of dumping guys around the 7 or 8 month mark. I had my little meltdown due to circumstances outside my control (and not his fault), but my body wouldn’t jump to the dump this time. I did the opposite of my natural pattern and ended up here. That’s how I knew where I belonged and with whom.

Someone once told me this, “If you want God to laugh, tell him your plans.” I did that and what I got in return was his middle finger in my face coupled with a super sized dose of happiness. Nice eh? If that’s what the middle finger represents then flick me off all you want God! I’m saying all of this in hindsight, of course. The truth is that I inadvertently manifested all I’m getting today by opening my big mouth and making hypothetical statements to different people while I was miserable, whether I was alone or in a relationship.

“Maybe I should date a guy with kids so I know for sure if he’s a good man…”
“IF I ever get pregnant, the guy must be ‘this way‘…”
“Maybe I will get married if I my needs are met by my partner…”

The biggest lesson I learned about manifesting this past year is that MAYBE and IF statements still count. It’s like I was telling the Universe that I was open to those possibilities, even though my mind was saying something else. Apparently I was lying to myself because I wouldn’t have used those terms if I didn’t really want those things to happen, deep down inside.

The same goes for fear based remarks. I was focused on NOT getting pregnant so much that I poured an excessive amount of energy into it. It was so bad that I think I drove Dave a bit crazy with checking those condoms and making it clear that I didn‘t want a baby. My paranoia (and perhaps some other important factors) told the Universe that getting pregnant was what needed to happen. I’ve always said that your fear is never the reality and I was right. Most of the negative things I thought I knew or was told about pregnancy did NOT happen to me. It’s been a very blissful time thus far and I know I’m very very lucky. Not everyone is blessed with what I’m experiencing, physically and emotionally. I’m super psyched to be a mommy, go figure.

It’s been a long way to happy for me and I’m extremely grateful for so much that the list could take years to recite. I have to give credit to those who have lead me to the life I have today starting with my crazy, dysfunctional family. I‘ll try to keep it short…

Thanks father for putting your bitch wife before your children. Your actions have showed me what to look for and what to avoid in a romantic partner. Your wife has taught me what not to be as a stepmother. If I didn’t experience her rein of terror, I wouldn’t know what the hell to do (and not to do) with my soon to be stepdaughters. I’m grateful to my mother in general. There are so many things to add, but I think I’ll just say it to her face.

To the new friends I made in Ohio and my people in Michigan, thanks for being here and being a part of my life. I thank you for every memory we’ve shared and look forward to creating many more. A special thanks to my clients. I appreciate you guys letting me into your lives and allowing me to do what I love most. To my new family, thanks for accepting me as I am. You guys have really changed the way I view my life and future. Finally and most importantly, to the folks who have left me and those I have walked away from, thanks for staying away.

Every single experience we have leads us to a choice. The choice to stay or to move forward. Moving away from a dream that has proven to be just that can hurt, but it’s necessary in order to enter the room of endless possibilities. I don’t know where I’d be if not for my desire and determination to be my true self. If I just stood there doing nothing, then I wouldn’t have been able to take part in the many joys life has to offer.

Another great epiphany I had recently is that my life wasn’t as bad as I made it out to be, especially my childhood. I‘ve seen other people get dealt a hand I never could‘ve handled and I should‘ve been more thankful for what I had and experienced. Playing the victim does nothing but create more unnecessary bullshit and half the time it’s nothing but imaginary drama that leads to excessive sulking. Yeah, I did that.

This is me, Cristin exposed…

The Waiting Game

Categories: Love & Stuff | February 25th, 2008 | by mysticwonder01 | no comments

Don’t you just love it when you believe you’ve done all this spiritual/emotional work on yourself and it seems like FOREVER before things start happening? Playing the waiting game with the Universe really stinks and sometimes produces emotional side effects such as consistent negative thinking and regret which could lead to us to stagnation, versus the destination we really want. Since I’ve been seeing a lot of this lately, I figured it was time to explore some of the causes and bring solutions to light.

I’m Ready…Really I Am-

Denial is the number one reason people react poorly to “the waiting game” or as I prefer to put it, divine time. Its main purpose is to trick your mind into believing you are living in one particular space, when in fact you’re nowhere near it. Most of the time it’s us denying the reality of our situation. A lot of us believe we’ve gotten through the letting go process and spiritual detoxification system when we say, ‘I’ve done it. I want my life to start already! What the hell is taking so long?!?”

If the major changes aren’t manifesting in our physical lives, it’s because the work is NOT done, it’s not time and/or there’s something we’ve missed. You think you’ve reached the end, only to realize you’re wrong. That’s a hard pill to swallow, I know. Don’t freak out when this happens as it’s very common. I haven’t seen one person who has made it to the end of a spiritual growth process without relapsing at least three times, myself included.

What is the culprit in a situation like this? It’s that wretched word TIME. It’s wasting your energy holding on to a person, situation and/or dream that’s failed to come to fruition for an extended period of time. It’s also the dwelling on what you don’t have, instead of creating something new and different. Lastly, it’s the lack of faith, not believing what you want is out there and/or placing all your cookies in one person‘s jar, so to speak.

The reason I threw denial into the mix of this “waiting game” is because it’s the biggest obstacle we must conquer to get to the next step. You must be clear about what’s really going on in your mind and heart. Only then will you be equipped to continue the journey and have the Universe believe you’re actually ready to accept change.

The Professional Saboteur-

This is one of the most emotionally fatal actions some people implement while on the journey of a life change. They actually get to the point where they’ve let go enough for the Universe to deliver and when it does, they DENY their prize. Here we go again with that denial stuff. I’m telling you, that’s the answer here people! Here is one of the most common scenarios I see in the art of sabotage:

You’ve been holding on to a romantic prospect for months/years, receiving broken communication throughout that time. You tell yourself you’re waiting for this person to become consistent and give you a commitment. Out of nowhere they come to you with those three magic words…”I love you” and offer up a relationship.

What do you do? You don’t trust them, challenge everything they say, pick arguments and worst of all, end your affair because you don’t think it can possibly work now. After you’ve had some time to think about your actions, you immediately call your psychic wondering if there’s still a chance at reconciliation.

So what do you REALLY want out of this? An ending or a new beginning? That’s what the Universe is wondering while you’re tossing contractions out there left and right. It’s as if you’re living this secret code that cannot be deciphered by anyone, let alone the person you’re focused on. In cases like this the answer to that question is usually, “I don’t really love them, I just want them to want me”. Another harsh reality check, I’m sure, but it’s very true in most of these situations.

Stagnation -

I’ve noticed that some folks in the waiting game don’t usually know what they want or are stuck on one floundering situation. Instead of them using this as a vacation spot, they turn it into a permanent address. This would be the Foe Effect. Boy is this a pain in the ass! It’s easy to get in, but the amenities are never what you thought they would be. Again, denial is what usually lures one into this mode.

There are others who place themselves in stagnation knowingly in effort to achieve true clarity and clean up their act. It’s also known as the Friend Effect. After many hard lessons, I’ve now subscribed to the Friend Effect daily and now my life choices have become much easier. Of course, being a member of this club takes a lot more work and struggle, but let me tell you, it’s sooo worth it in the end. There’s nothing wrong with taking time to heal after a relationship has ended or just some alone time to figure out what you really want out of life.

If It’s So “Meant To Be” Then Why Doesn’t It Stay?

There’s a simple explanation for those who get what they thought they wanted only to see it fall apart. This section is for everyone, not just the professional saboteurs. If it’s meant to be forever, the Universe will enforce the outcome by putting up blocks to all your walls and tricks. Spirit will help direct the people involved and guide them to the proper destination. This can often be a rocky road, but the end result is still left in tact.

If it doesn’t turn out to be the “end all be all” path, it was probably slated to be a choice to begin with. If it’s a choice then the Universe won’t bother to try and stop you (or your mate) from sabotaging the situation or going elsewhere, they’ll just deliver another, but one that’s in your highest good when your time comes.

The Good Fight-

Sometimes we’re allowed to put up a fight in relationships to reach our final destination, whether it‘s here to stay or to say goodbye. This occurs when there’s a life lesson being offered up and must be completed before that person can reach the next step on their life path. We’re also allowed to fight for what we truly believe in, especially if our heart and intuition is leading us in a direction that differs from our partner’s ideals. There’s nothing wrong with standing your ground and finding a compromise that suits both parties. It’s another to fight and place blame solely on the other person involved to fuel a power trip or ego gratification. Nothing good comes of that, trust me!

Life Happens When…

You forget about what you don’t have and let the Universe guide you. It’s easier said than done, but what’s the worst that can happen? You will probably find that letting go and taking that flying leap into the arms of your higher power will relieve you of stress, pain, anger and loneliness. That special someone really does find you when you‘re not psychotically looking for it. When your mind is set to trying new things to better yourself, you put out this massively open energy that shouts, “I’m ready and I’m for real this time!”